Bye bye Hetty and bye bye Alan

April 22, 1908

I have decided to be good, starting with Hetty. I believe that leaving her while she is still pure would be the best thing for her. She reminds me too much of Silval Vane. After saying goodbye to Hetty, Lord Henry tells me that I probably just ruined any chance of her finding love again. So far this whole being "good" thing is not working out. If ruining Hetty was not enough, the death of Alan is. Me blackmailing him caused him so much stress, so much anxiety that he killed himself. My soul is is terrible, it has been bought, and it has been sold.